Born....not made.......

somehow through my entire ordeal with the psychonarc, i was able to keep a loose grasp on the idea that it was not ME...no matter how much he blamed me..attacked me, somewhere deep down i clung to that idea...and started doing some investigative work...a little tidbit here..a little there..but when all these bits are pieces are put together..it proves beyond any shadow of a doubt that the psychonarc was born and not made...he is not a product of his environment, his envirnoment is a product of him..
there is a great deal of evidence that he was antisocial from birth..he didn't want to be touched by his own mother..he had few childhood friends..instead of playing with groups of other children, he preferred to rob change machines and bowl for hours on end..alone..
he was predatorizing his parents and other relatives from the time he was eight or nine years old...
he blew up the fountain at the country club his parents belonged to when he was nine..
he was hanging out in the back room of a gas station and playing dice with grown men when he was nine or ten...making bets with money he had stolen from his mother's purse..or from his blind grandmother..
by sixth grade he was stealing prescription pads from his father's dental office and forging prescriptions for codeine that he was self medicating with or selling to classmates at the private school he attended..
in his teens his great aunt had bought a new car..the psychonarc wanted to drive it....she refused..the next day he got his hands on the keys...stole the car and wrecked it....

i have not been able to find one shred of evidence that he ever suffered any sort of abuse as a child..all evidence suggests that it was he who was the abuser and predator...right out of the chute, so to speak....

by the time he was in his late teens he was making trips to mexico and smuggling and selling large quantities of marijuana...he enrolled in the university of kansas just for the clientele...while his parents footed the expenses....

and on it goes...up to and including this point in time..where he is now 60 years old..and continues to con and predatorize his way through life...

they don't change....he was born a monster...and he'll die a monster....and all pity and sympathy should be extended to the long list of victims left destroyed in his wake....

as i said on my blog.if ever there was someone deserving of crib death....it's the psychonarc...