Being his poison container in the relationshit...

Something just dawned on me and I thought I'd share it with those of you here who are struggling with NC or having some sort of hope he'll contact you.

One of my ex friends once said that I was a good "poison container" She was RIGHT, so right about that.

What does that mean? It means the more you allow the abuse and for him to take all of his projections onto yourself the higher of value you you will be, even when the relationshit is over, isn't that EXCITING!

I was such a GREAT poison container! Why, he could just lift the lid and dump a load many times a day and like a trash compactor, I ATE IT UP FOR HIM! GOOD little poison container!!

Seriously, one of the reasons a psychopath will come hoovering is sometimes dependent upon how easy it was to abuse and hurt you. How great of a poison container you were in the relationshit. If you took A LOT, he's likely to value that of you HIGHLY.

NOw, THINK about that. Doesn't it make you want to call him right now?

Doesn't it make you want to have sex with him, give him money, a place to live?

Doesn't it make you just wanna give up what is left of your self respect and dignity?

Doesn't it make you want to sit by the phone and wait for his call so he can just lift the lid and DUMP all over you?

Ridiculous, huh?

Mine really enjoyed that about me. In the end, I was probably the best poison container he ever had. I'm so very proud of that! NOT!

Think about it.