Anyone else not missing N?

Just wondering.....I don't mis N one bit, and he been gone for 7 weeks now. I went to see a therapist just after he left because I was scared of "the black hole". She told me that I had probably been through the worst of it and there might not be a black hole. Up till now, she's right. I must say there has been no contact except through lawyers. Learning about this disorder has made so many things clear now. I feel relieved. I can be myself again instead of always trying to please him and steer him right. No more twisted conversations or threats, peace and quiet. I will never, ever go back!