Anniversary

Today would have been my 3 year anniversary w the ex N. I've been so good.... No contact for 4months :)
I wanted to post today because I feel a bit weird today. I don't wish to get him back or speak to him or anything like that. NC is the best thing I ever did.... I gues today just makes me think about the start and how good things were..... Or how unbelievably fooled I was :(
Guess today I'm sad for what could have been if I had met who I actually thought I'd met.... A nice caring, loving, charming empathetic man.... Not the devil in disguise.

Is that normal? Sad for what could have been.

Deestarr x