Angry today.....

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#1 May 17 - 6AM
Lucky Escape
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Angry today.....

Sorry ladies but I feel the need to rant.....I have been doing so well, gaining great understanding and acceptance but today is not a good day...

I feel so angry about the following:

1 He has moved on so quickly - he has replaced me immediately with someone who looks like me, has the same interests and whose children are off her hands (major tick in the box for her as mine were hard work for him!)and therefore his two girls can come first with no competition from any other kids.

2 He is love-bombing deluxe - no haven't broken NC but the last indirect contact was thru a friend who confirmed he finally has met his "soul-mate"! Nope, just someone he can control and manipulate.

3 The smear campaign - this has been hard to bear and I KNOW it is not me but the INJUSTICE of it is making my blood boil.

4 The man is not even that nice to look at, is NOT a nice person, has NO friends and is the most manipulative little toad I have ever had the misfortune to meet..

......so why do I feel today, so ANGRY

I know - it's part of the process, it is part of my healing and I am embracing the anger, channelling it into work and my own self-esteem. It is working.....

But quite frankly, today, I could happily drive round there and stick a banana up his exhaust pipe and pins in his eyeballs - this is not like me. I don't even tread on ants. I have a colleague whose wife got rushed into hospital having just given birth yesterday and she is so poorly, I was so upset to hear this, they are such lovely people. I know what I am and thank God for the tears that were in my eyes as it balanced me again.

During the final Discard, I treated the little man with total contempt - I look back now and am proud of this but he had such a way of twisting things, why am I remembering all of this now, again??? - he used to bang on about how I should care about his opinion and I would respond, calmly "your opinion of me is not asked for and it will never be important to me again" This used to send him into a rage - a passive agressive one. YUK, that was not nice. Then he would make threats, to call the police, social services, go legal and I would say "go ahead, do it, whatever you need to do" again so calm, again more passive aggression.

This man is scum, he left the gf before me when she was 8 weeks pregnant with his child and then has manipulated his way out of ever meeting this little girl, claiming that it's all the mother's fault, he will not be emotionally blackmailed into anything and justifies not having contact with the child ongoing by saying that it is the mothers choice, but he manipulated her decision!!! HIDEOUS. And now me, justified leaving me with debt and the rental house to sort out because I was a "threat to his wellbeing". And off he trots, on his little trotters, to charm and smarm his way into some other poor poor woman's life.

AAAAGGH, they are such utter utter SCUM.

Lucky Escape......feel slightly better now as was so close to breaking NC.

Thanks for reading my virtual friends! Deep breath and on with the rest of my day.......N free and lucky to be that way.

May 17 - 10AM
Deidre99
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(((lucky))) I'm sorry you're

May 17 - 9AM
TarHeelBlue
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Hi, LE...just so you know,

May 17 - 9AM (Reply to #5)
Lucky Escape
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THB - LOL!

May 17 - 7AM
Sparrow
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You have every right to be

May 17 - 7AM (Reply to #2)
Lucky Escape
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Sparrow, you are such a great

May 17 - 9AM (Reply to #3)
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LE, I am so proud of you

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