ANGRY DAY
ANGRY DAY
Hello ladies.
I am angry today. Wierd, I am not usually angry. Today, I was scrolling through my pictures on my cell phone and came across one of my N. I deleted ALL of them I thought. It made me sick to look at it. It made me angry to look at it. It made me think of all the things he has done to me and how I allowed it month after month after month. These are some examples of what he has done, and I remained with him.........
* June - Our first night together, after "love"making (what a joke) he walked me to my car in the city, we could not find the parking garage, my sandle broke and he got very agitated.....I told him to go back to his hotel, I would find my car on my own. He went back to his hotel and I wandered the streets bare foot and half drunk alone in the middle of the night. When I did find it, I cried the whole ride home. I was devastated.
* July - He knew it was my birthday, we spoke of it many times because of all the differnet plans my friends, family and I had made for different celebrations. He NEVER wished me Happy Birthday, nor did he send me a card or a gift, NOTHING.
* August - He had been begging me to come see him in his homestate and when I finally told him that I would come for a long weekend during Labor Day, he NEVER called me back to firm up. Took him 2 weeks after Labor Day.
* September - I invited him to come to my homestate and spend a long weekend at the beach. He said Yes, he would love to. I booked the place and sent in my deposit. He decide a week before that to stop talking to me and didn't starta again until after that trip came and went.
* October - Went on a little trip with him to Florida. I flew to him while he was on business. First night was great, 2nd night not so great, 3rd day.......he ignored me the entire day. Watched tv, didn't look at me, talk to me or touch me. Put me in a cab to the airport as though to send me on my way.
* Novemeber - Flew to be with him in his homestate. Had a great time the 1st night, ok the 2nd, same thing as last time........unattentive, almost as if he couldn't be bothered. Drove me to the airport, did not wait for me, just dropped me off at the curb and I sat inside the airport for 3 hours alone. Didn't call to wish me Happy Thanksgiving the following weekend, didn't call until late that evening.
* December - The holidays came and went, no card, no gift, no holiday greetings. When he returned my call, he said he doesn't like bothering people on the holidays. Bullshit! He speaks French, I don't, but I sent him a French Christmas card and wrote a note translated from English to French telling him how much he meant to me. I also sent him a card from his dog. Nothing, not even a thank you. I finally asked if her ever received them thinking maybe, just maybe, they got lost in the mail. He responded "oh yeh, I did".
* January - He invited me to his place New Years Eve weekend, I had already made plans to go to Jamaica with my friends for the New Years. He never called to wish me Happy New Years.
* February - Valentines Day came and went - I flew to Oregon to meet him for a long weekend. Same as the other trips, 1st night great, 2nd ok, last day, ugh.....he didn't drive me to the airport although he had a rental car, he didn't feel like driving so he poured me into a cab and sent me on my way.
* March - I flew out to him AGAIN! This time the 1st night was great, 2nd night SUCKED. I watched him watch the basketball game for hours. I told him I hated BB and that we only have til tomorrow and then I flew 2000 miles to be with him. He said "I know, but this is the final four" He never played basketball, never followed it that I was aware of.
* April - Invited him to come to me this time....he always makes excuses. Told me he would come in the summer when it was hot and we could go to the beach. I pressed the issue and he got angry with me and went off the grid again. I discovered he was on Match.com and probably has been this entire time.....he was not aware that I knew.
* May - Set in "Operation Blue Eyed Monster" mission in to place to expose him and be done with him once and for all. Mission accoumplished on 5/30........NC ever since. Hasn't been long but I have no desire to see or speak to him. Changed all my contact info and I don't need to worry about him showing up at my door. Hell, I couldn't get him here on a good day.
Today..........I am very angry. I am not sure if I am more angry at myself or him. What a complete utter waste of time it was to be involved with him. That is 1 year of my life I will never get back. AND, the ONLY year of my life I regret. I am fortunate in that aspect, that it was only a year............but today, I am really ANGRY.
Thanks for listening to me rant.............
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