Am I the only one who DOESN'T want this?
Am I the only one who DOESN'T want this?
I'm new here, so I'll make this short and sweet. I believe my ex is an N, but not too extreme. He left me Feb. 8 saying it just "wouldn't work out". Mainly blaming it on my family because they hate him. But I know this is just his struggle about wanting to be free or be in a relationship. Everyone says they can't love. . . but I truly think he REALLY does love me. We were really happy, this kinda came from no where. Why am I the only one who can only think "Pleeease come back, please come back, please come back!" I turned my phone off after the break up because I was an absolute mess. Crying so hard I couldn't breath. I've kept my phone off and have not checked my messages yet. I can't bear to watch the phone every second of the day, feel my heart jump when it rings, and if it's not him feel it crushed. If it is him my heart will jump, but if he just wants to tell me I left something over there or he needs this or that back then that will be yet another blow. I can't bear to hear his voice and it not say "this is a mistake, come back, let's move on."
I DON'T want out, I DON'T want to move on. I just want him, even if that means a lot of bad with the good. I wonder if I should stroke his ego and tell him how perfect he is for him to come back, or if I should act strong and like I've moved on so that he'll want to "conquer" me again. Even though I desperately need advice, I'm sure none of you will actually tell me the best way to get an N back. I'm betting you will all say "Move on." But I hurt so bad and want him so bad I feel like I'm going crazy. My every single thought is of him and us getting back together and that deep fear that he might actually be done. I guess this wasn't so short after all huh? Sorry ladies, I just feel like I'm losing it and wanted to talk to anyone about it.
Thanks for listening.
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