Am I going mad?

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#1 Nov 10 - 4PM
time_to_move_on
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Am I going mad?

I am getting over my ex (and about to start therapy.. this week..phew) but sometimes I get thoughts about him and the way he was and think, was I imagining it/too paranoid? Perhaps he couldn't be capable of what I thought?

One thing that stuck with me. My ex was a teacher, of 16-17 yr olds (he's not now, lost his job). He once said to me and a friend that he said to another teacher that young girls shouldn't wear short skirts in the front row of the class as he may find it difficult not to look, if they had their legs open. Thing is, he said it as if it was their fault for not being dressed appropriately, I think he even went to the point of telling them not to wear certain skirts. And when he was around my 8 year old niece, he used to be all over her, really sickly, "darling this, darling that" and cuddling her. But my sister-in-law, her mother, thought he was great with kids.

I don't know, I think he was creepy, and I used to get scared when I thought of having a child to him. Am I imagining things here?

I know I need to stop obsessing but sometimes I find it hard to work out what was real and what wasn't.

Nov 10 - 6PM
Ellen
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Yuk thats sick

Hi time_to_move_on, Your instinct is there for a good reason. 'He once said to me and a friend that he said to another teacher that young girls shouldn't wear short skirts in the front row of the class as he may find it difficult not to look', That's just disgusting, why would a man who is a teacher to these young people not have respect for his position as their mentor. He can find grown consenting adults if he wants to see the female genitals and not need to distract himself from the young developing bodies and minds. Gross gross warning sign.....did you have kids with him? I bet he's great with kids.......for his ego and needs but not in the way we all think great with kids mean. Can you really doubt your gut feeling here. I'snt this why so many children have been damaged in this world. This man is a predator of children.....beware and take care of your neice. well thats my bit.
Nov 10 - 6PM (Reply to #6)
time_to_move_on
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yeah...

I think you're right. I didn't have kids with him (luckily). But I did really want a child (just not with him!). A friend said "well, maybe you could have a child". I told her that "no, it would be hell on earth". And her reaction of "why are you with him?" Was another reason as to why we split up shortly. He actually made my flesh crawl, and I felt mean as he'd been so badly abused but I made the best decision. Reading about people's experiences on here who have had children, yes, it doesn't sound great, but something about him made me feel even worse. thanks Ellen, for confirmation.
Nov 10 - 4PM
Barbara (not verified)
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time to move on

I find it hard to work out what was real and what wasn't Typical - because their behavior is SOOOOOO bizarre. For me I can't believe what I tolerated - part of the brainwashing. if you're mad than every member on this board is too. therapy will help... ~~~~~~~~~~~~ My Abuse Information Site Online Coaching & Help
Nov 10 - 5PM (Reply to #2)
time_to_move_on
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Barbara, you're right about bizarre...

I think that's what it is, I can't work out how anyone can say/do some of the stuff he did. It is bizarre, better just to accept that and not bother analysing. I guess I can never make sense of it.
Nov 10 - 5PM (Reply to #3)
Barbara (not verified)
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non human bizarreness

a normal brain will NEVER be able to make sense of an abnormal, non-human brain. Stay out of their head... it's not worth trying to figure it out. Embrace that they are NOT HUMAN and it all makes 'sense.' ~~~~~~~~~~~~ My Abuse Information Site Online Coaching & Help
Nov 11 - 11AM (Reply to #4)
4joys4
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Believe your gut.

Believe your gut.