ALMOST TEXTED HIM

I haven't seem my N in 3 weeks and I almost texted him last night.

How am I going to get this stupid drug out of my system......it's like he's a drug and I hate it.

I actually want him to contact me - so I can look at it and think "see, he does miss me"

getting that satisfaction - am I crazy? Has anyone else felt this way in the beginning?

feeling like YOU have control, not him