Allergic to Personality Disorders?

I feel like I had an allergic reaction to spending time on Thanksgiving with a Narcissist and some other disordered/dysfunctional people.

BACKSTORY

If we look at being involved with someone who has a personality disorder in terms of illness:

It's been several years since I left the psychopathic man I married. Over the years he made me SICK. Emotionally. Physically. Financially. Spiritually.

I would say that healing has come slowly. The divorce and property settlement took so long (by his design so that he could further engage and victimize me). The custody settlement dragged on, and was such a fight, so expensive, on and on. It's taken me so long to learn to create boundaries that are effective. He still does stalking behaviors. He abuses my child. On and on. It's hard.

But I am recovering from the illness of being involved with a personality disordered man. I am. And I've noticed more personality disordered people in my life. I've noticed the boundary pushing. I've made healthy adjustments.

I've realized that in order for me to REALLY heal from the experience of being married to a psychopath, I will someday need to date. Allow another man into my life. Engage. In order to heal. Someday. Not today.

PRESENT SITUATION & THE POINT OF MY POST

I feel like I had an allergic reaction from my experience with new friends and neighbors on Thanksgiving Day.

On the surface, it was a lovely time. The hosts were gracious. The guests were friendly. Interesting stories were told. The food was tasty. My contributions toward the meal were complimented and appreciated. My presence was valued. So, it was all good, right?

You know that little voice that we all ignored while dating our N/P? The voice that told us something wasn't right, even tho he put on such a convincing act? That VOICE?

Well, THAT VOICE was going OFF so loud the day after Thanksgiving.

At the Thanksgiving celebration there was a clear Narcissist in the room. And he bothered me. I tried to avoid him. Then, there was the dynamics between the 3 married couples who were present. The passive aggressiveness. The inappropriateness. It was SUBTLE. But, I was married once. To a psychopath. And I'm an empath. So, I noticed it. I felt it. And YUCK.

Allergic Reaction. YUCK.

The details don't matter. The bottom line does.

I will NOT hang out with disordered folks. I do NOT want to be involved with any nonsense. I'm spending my time and my energy socializing with people who make me feel GOOD, who I admire for their behaviors, for the way they treat me and others. I'm listening to my little voice.

I do not begrudge the holiday or the experience or the allergic reaction. It was great. I'm glad my voice talks to me. I'm glad I was out there in the world taking a risk, meeting new people, stretching out. It's all good.

Maybe someday I will be less sensitive to it. Maybe it will be not a big deal. Maybe I'll be like, oh yeah, that annoying dude is a Narcissistic A**. Next subject.

But today (and really yesterday WOW) I'm still having an allergic reaction to spending a day with disordered individuals. Phew.

Anybody else have this sort of reaction during your healing process?