Alcohol

Hi everybody,

I've had a pretty good couple of days, maybe three days or more. I am beginning to suspect that there is a correlation between my having even one or two glasses of wine at night and slipping into anxiety and depression over the n experience the next day. I haven't had anything to drink in several days and am feeling not as as usual(I was in a desperately low state last week and the beginning of this week). I don't think it's a coincidence.

Alcohol is a depressant, and for those of us who are hovering around the boundary of dark and light, the alcohol may push us into the dark, or further into it, even in small quantities. (I wasn't exactly drowning my sorrows in it)

Just wanted to put that out there for you to consider if you've been struggling and surprised at unexpected dips, it could be chemical and maybe staying away from alcohol might help. I bought myself a pretty Japanese tea mug and have been making nice green teas instead.

I say this as someone who likes nothing more than to sip her glass of wine whilst soaking in the tub, but I'm going to resist the temptation no matter how good and strong I feel, to avoid contributing to any risk of sliding back into the bottomless pit of sorrow. It's not worth it.

Happy Mother's Day to you all. I do not have children, and my own mother is a narc from whom I am estranged, but I will be mothering myself, my garden, and expressing gratitude to Sweet Mother Earth for my life on this beautiful planet.

Wishing you all a beautiful day. Do something special for yourself. Give yourself all the love you can; you deserve it.

xo

Ophelia