After He Narcs You...
After He Narcs You...
On and off for three years with my N. When we were doing well I was on cloud 9, but after he would tell me some obvious lie, rage at me for the slightest of reasons, or D & D me I would find myself behaving like another person. I wouldn't make as much of an effort to make sure I looked good. I wouldn't sing and dance in the car to my favorite songs. I wouldn't talk to other people. The worst part was I would see myself snapping at my son because he (the N) had made me miserable and confused once again. My baby would immediately sense the difference in my behavior. A five year old should never have to confort his mother through such bullshit. How could I give someone that much control over me without even realizing it? As i sit here and cry over all the negative effects he had on me I realize the month or two we would have enjoying each other compared to the weeks of silent treatments, hang ups, and sad looks on my son's face when he saw me sad were never worth it. Been contemplating breaking NC all day, but the bad memories just wouldn't let me do it, so I am grateful for them. They hurt, but they give me more and more strength to say F**K HIM!!!
Yes, how my kids put up with
I could have written this post.
Hang-ups! Remember when you
Yes I remember the hang ups
you dont deserve to be treated like that
He has emotionally scared and