Advise please. I am stuck in neutral
Advise please. I am stuck in neutral
Ok, 31 days NC. I am so glad i have not responded to his dripping apologies. NC has given me clarity. However, I fell stuck. I am going out and socializing every day and several nights a week. I am working out an hour a day. I quit smoking the day i quit the N. Killed 2 toxins with one stone. And while this forum has helped me tremendously, I sometimes fell addicted to IT. Crazy I know. I have read every article on N & P, read many books, seen lots of Sam Vaknin videos,constantly searching for new resources to help me. But I still feel stuck. I can't even describe it.
At first it was all about him and understanding this disorder. Now my focus has turned inward and I'm discovering some issues with my past and my need to have approval. I don't want to be grateful for the IDD, but it has really awakened something in me. I have a definite pattern of improper boundaries & not saying how I truly feel for fear of what...hurting someones feelings? having someone not like me? I am an educated successful attractive woman who at 53 has never "gotten" a relationship right.
I guess I am exhausted physically, emotionally & mentally. This is soooo much hard work. I know some of you are much further along than me and I am wondering when I will be able to relax and enjoy the fruits of my labor?
Wow...I so relate to your
I feel exactly like you do
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