9.5 Months since D&D

This forum has been a godsend. I'm only 9.5 months post D&D and without this forum and reading everyone's posts and comments, I would have slipped and broke NC. Now I know contact=pain. Thank you Hunter. I have been no verbal/text contact since 10/2/13 (divorce mediation) prior to that 8/1/13, I'm extremely proud of what I've accomplished, especially being an extremely co-dependent person, and being with him since I was 18...Quite a change when you've been with someone your adult life until this point.

Granted I'm only 9.5 months in, but I'm not a complete mess anymore. Yes, I still have the obsessive thoughts, but they aren't as "obsessive" as they used to be. I still think about what could have been, what if I had done this or that, it doesn't matter anymore. No sense beating yourself up when you know you did all you could. D&D is inevitable.

To all the newbies out there, trust me, I'm not that strong. I was a mess. I didn't eat, didn't go to work, I obsessed, obsessed, obsessed. Please know this does get better. Please know that FB stalking, Instagram peaking only causes you immense pain. Please continue on this forum reading, commenting, and learning from the vets and offering advice when you can. This is to say thank you to all the members as you have been an inspiration to me to continue NC and to find a new life for ME! I can't wait to post at the one year mark to address my progress again.

XO for a great 2014!