5 days NC

I did it! I have made it to 5 days NC. I know its not much but its a lot for me. And I feel great about it and from it. I can see things soooo much more clearer. How I was just a player in his stupid little game. I am so over it. You guys were right. NC is hard but its made me feel so much better. The longer I have gone NC the less I want to contact him. I no longer automatically reach for my phone in the morning and have to convince myself not to call him. In fact, I dont think he is any longer the first or last thing I think of at night. Don't get me wrong theres still a tiny part of me that misses the fake, fictitious him but just now i can 100% say I would never ever want to go back to that so called life I had with him. I was miserable and I can see it now. His OW tried to contact me last week, it didnt last long between them. Did she honestly think I would have anything to say to her??? Hopefully I can do another 5 days as well! Thanks to all you guys for your advice and support. You have been an unbelievable support. Its hard to believe that 3 weeks ago I was discovering the truth of OW and the extent of his lies and deceit. I never ever thought I would make it through it but now I am actually feeling positive and so much happier than I was. Thanks guys.