3-months of NC via internet!

As I've written on here before, I wrote a contract to myself to no longer cyber stalk the N. Nothing on FB or the internet for 3 months. Today I reached my goal! I plan to treat myself to something new this weekend and will renew for another 3 months. I don't want to check on him fearing a huge setback but the contract helped me mentally during those weak moments.

Strangely enough, the N posted a comment on my business FB page yesterday out of the blue. He is blocked but somehow was able to comment. All he said was "Nice shoes!" about a photo I was in. I felt insulted. After everything that happened, he writes something casual like nothing at all. One of my friends said he must be mentally ill or have a memory problem. I had to laugh as she knows nothing about narcissism.

I had dinner with close friends last night and one of them said she checked out his FB page since he had commented on my business page. I told her to stop, that I didn't want to hear anything. She understood immediately.

Anyway, today is a little tough because my therapist is retiring. She has been there for me from the start. I am being referred to another one. It's just a little sad.

I will say I feel so much stronger in staying NC. However, at this point, I still don't trust myself to ever try to "handle" him again. NC can seem extreme, but is necessary to keep my sanity.