3 faces of Narcissist's fake persona

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#1 Sep 17 - 10PM
LuxxDee
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3 faces of Narcissist's fake persona

Was your N ever curled up in the corner and crying, or just crying as a little kid, while accusing you of destroying your life or just feeling depressed and hopeless etc.?
I think I read in Vaknin's writings that if Narcissist's true self "comes out" , it would act like that [he says true self is 6 years old, I am not sure if he is right].
I am not sure now if Vaknin said that or if I read it somewhere else but My ex-N, did this once, and he was doing it for hours.
Back then I didn't know much about it but I did figure out that he might be an N by that time.
So he literally curled up in the corner like little 5 year old [he was 36 at the time} and cried and kept accusing me how I destroyed his life, how I never do what he asked me to do, and accusing me of a lot of other stuff,it lasted for 2,3 hours.
I thought that this is his true [little kid] self which came out [because I learned about narcissism from Vaknin first, it was the first thing I found on the internet and read everything.
Then while that was going on, I turned my head a few times not looking directly at him and turned back and a few times I caught him looking at me totally normally even with a smile on his face, watching my reaction when I wasn't looking. He was acting !!! It wasn't really, he was performing and watching my reactions secretly!! I thought he was genuinely hurt even though wrong about everything while I was trying to convince him that I love him - he was accusing me "You didn't want to do what I asked you to do therefore you don't love me", then he kept crying and crying, and I kept explaining how I couldn't do it, I have kids at home I can't leave them alone, and how I do love him etc etc.
So 3 faces of Narcissist's false self - not 2 as Vaknin says...that little kid is also fake, its performance.

Sep 18 - 12AM
Caligirl
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Mine never cried! Not one tear ever!

I was just listening to Vaknin tonight. I think these false tears are actually part of the false self, an act to garner your sympathy and attention. The true self, according to Vaknin, is completely ossified, almost shriveled if you will. It did not survive the trauma, and it would be VERY rare to see it, as it was so much replaced by the false self that it IS in fact the FALSE SELF. Trippy huh?
Sep 17 - 11PM
Better than ever
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Yes! Mine did that too!!

Yes! Mine did that too!! Only I thought it was real....acting like he was 6, crying about his childhood.....I didn't know it was an act but I believe it...just to get a reaction. Ugh!!!! More acting!!!
Sep 17 - 11PM
lilliandiane
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Yeah, I have seen the fake tears

N talking about Derek ad how he was afraid of Derek not loving him anymore. It was an act.
Sep 17 - 11PM
juliamarie
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This was my experience

My Narc reverted to 6 years old on a regular basis. My favorite tactic of his was "fetal position" when he didn't want to discuss something. I got really tired of having a 40 year old fake anxiety attacks every time I called him out on something. It's really difficult to have a conversation with a 6 year old cowering in his bed. I have panic disorder so I found his anxiety attacks to be "convenient" considering I know the drill. They milk it.