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I`m angry and sad. He got through to me again, this time through his OW. I broke NC nad watched his FB profile. He had some "closure stuff" about her, and some of their conversations.

I tried to remain unaffected I really did. But I can`t see her declarations for him on my site. It just brings me in that dark place again. And that`s what he wants.

My reaction? I deleted her as a friend. I tried to block her too, but couldn`t because didn`t showed her mail address. I deleted our "contact" music channel too. The place where we used to, part me, I used to (!!) post love songs, for 4 years..4 fucking years..and he still doesn`t want to stop fucking with my head. Sorry for the language, just venting I guess.

I want this nightmare to end. And because he doesn`t want to stop, I`ll make it stop. I put boundaries, and will continue to do exactly that, I don`t care what stuff will brag about me to people, that probably I`ve gone paranoia and crazy. Nope, I clean my life of living creeps and bastards, that`s what I do.

If he wants to be with her, or make her post pictures with him, let him do it on his own time and space. Not on mine. I think he simply tries to hurt me with the last remains he has left..

OW is riding the high with Daddy now..for how long? She wants to be in MY place? God, she really doesn`t know what she`s asking for. She still had a life. I stayed in a coma for months, and barely picked myself up to start again. But she will find that one day on her own skin, I can`t help her. She wants to be the "good lovin' daddy girl"? She will be..God help her.

I wanted this train to stop. He wanted to hurt me and afftect me one more time? Congratulations, he did! But as much as he tries to brake me, as many strong steps I make into getting my life back.