2 steps forward then 1 step back
2 steps forward then 1 step back
I've been feeling pretty down today and been thinking about exN a lot. I was dreading Christmas but Christmas Eve and Christmas Day ended up being pretty good days... I thought about exN but I was able to still be in pretty good spirits. But for some reason today I've been near tears and I keep thinking about exN and his new girlfriend and what they did for Christmas and what they'll do for New Year's Eve and how I'm sure he's treating her better than he ever treated me. And, that he's moved on and doesn't even think about me at all, and here I am constantly thinking about him. It's not fair! Surprisingly, I was doing better during Christmas. :-)
I feel like I took a couple of steps forward and now I've taken a step back. I know this is a slow process and I'm not going to get over him or heal quickly, but I'm tired of always missing him and having him on my mind constantly, especially since he doesn't deserve my time, emotions, feelings, thoughts, love, etc.
Even though I know I'll never be able to figure him out and know why he said the things he said and did what he did, I still analyze everything and still feel if I had done or said things differently he would have been different and wouldn't have broken up with me and want to go with the OW. I kept trying to make him happy and to be interested in the things he was interested in, even though he made no effort with me.
I think someone else mentioned in another post about closure. I feel like I didn't have closure... I have so many unanswered questions. I'm hoping that in time he won't be on my mind as much, and I won't care about trying to figure everything out... I'll be able to put him where he belongs... in the past and I'll be able to move on!
But, I don't feel alone since I've found this forum. Thanks to all of you for being there!!
Hugs,
Safyre99
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Im so glad youre christmas
You're right Scoop
It's not any better with her!!!
Thanks lilybart
Take it from me, I was
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Safyre-
Thanks Justicejones
Totally-
Congratulations Justicejones
Safyre
Journey on...
Journey
Completely
Journey on...
Yes it is like mourning
I'm sorry you are hurting.
Thanks Deidre99
Ok, I see. I am so sorry you
That's so true