19 Days NC-Moved.Blocked Narc. It's not love, it's addiction

I know staying close to the forum is essential to my recovery. 19 days NC... This is almost my personal best of 22 days. I have been feeling physically ill about NC & the NARC. It's not that I miss his verbal abuse, lies, multiple women, selfishness, need for praise, attention or approval. No, I'm just kicking an addiction to whom I thought he was... HE.... Is a PRICK!!!
I am bemused by one of his last monologues..."FreeMe, I do love you and IF you want a relationship with me, you have to accept that I am involved with other women... I know it makes you behave in a way that are not you (jealous, angry, sad) but I'm not willing to change what I'm doing. I know I risk losing you, but that's a chance I'm willing to take."
Who says that? Yes, a NARC...
Translation: I'm going to say I love you because SUPPLY loves to hear this, I am telling you outright about OW because you found me out when you read my texts to OW. It's your own fault you now now about OW. I don't really care enough about you or my relationship with you to stop fucking around with OW. You are old SUPPLY to me. You fell for years of my love bombing, I won your love and now I'm done with you. I'm onto other women I can manipulate, conquer and dump at my discretion. All of you women are crazy (his words)... Everyone wants something from me, except you FreeMe, you were stupid enough to fall in love with me.
The beauty of you FreeMe is I have succeeded in making you happy with the pitiful little crumbs of attention I've given you. You lap it up like a thirsty puppy. I'm gonna fuck every woman on the planet & you'll be just where I left you... Pining for me.....

Well guess what asshole- you're DEAD! You died 19 days ago & I refuse to mourn your absence. This is my Path Forward and in my NEW world, there are NO NARC's ALLOWED!!
NC = FUCK YOU!!!

Just Venting
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