14 Days No Contact!!
14 Days No Contact!!
Hell yeah!!! What an absolute shift that has happened in me!! Able to accept reality for it is and to want better for myself and to have the strength to walk away from abuse.
I, of course, still find myself thinking of him but it is more like I am realizing red flags that I should have noticed and acted on. So many areas of my life that were completely dysfunctional and only welcomed more abusive people into my life, but I am facing the pain and fear head on now and dealing with it.
The only way forward is through, too many times I tried to go around the issues...it hurt too much to think about going through all the pain.....but no more!! 5 months now I have been grieving and healing. I never grieved any relationship break up all the way back to when I was 14 years old (ironically the same boy that is my Narc now). I always broke up and went and got another boyfriend instead of feeling sad or lonely. What a huge mistake!! So it hasn't been pretty over here for the last 5 months!! 30 years worth of grief and pain I have endured!! :o) There were times I didn't think I could get off the couch or make it to the next morning, but I did!
I am now establishing and being being active in healthy boundaries to keep the peace and balance in my life!! I am forgiving myself for mistakes I have made and realizing that I am stronger than I thought, that it's in our moments of weakness that we build our strength and that I am in control of my future and happiness, nobody else is!! I am learning so many lessons!!
It feels so good to be coming out of the darkness and I want to encourage all of you to keep fighting for your own future and happiness. It will get better, I promise. Believe in yourself and know that you deserve only peace and harmony and love and kindness. Just take it one day at a time! I will be praying for us all!
Love,
Sherry
thats awesome
Congrats Sherbear
I'm there with ya, Lisa!
You are inspiring, Sherbear!
Congratulations!
Susan...
Detoxing
Sherbear
Believe in yourself!
Terri
Terri
Sherbear, I am so very
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Awww Betty!!
It is all of YOU that do for
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Im jealous
9 days is great!!
Congrats Sherry!
Whole again