12 Days NC down the drain
12 Days NC down the drain
Ok, so I knew better. I know better! I was sooo sure I would stay NC forever, too. Then, this morning I'm getting my hair colored at the salon (in same town as one of his OW lives), and I start thinking about looking up her address again (already did this a couple months ago), driving by, etc. I decided against that, and thought I was ok. Then I pull out my phone and unblock him and type out a response to his text to me a week ago today, which was "I hope you are doing well. You are on my mind a whole lot :(". Well, after 12 days no contact and 7 days since his text, I proceed to type out "Likewise, my friend". I erased it a couple times, knowing better. Then I would type it again. Then I hit send! Ugggh I am so disgusted with myself. I freaking know better. What was I hoping to accomplish, more pain? Setting myself back? To give him supply? Because that's all that can come of this stupidity. I regretted it the moment I hit send. My heart sank because I just threw away 12 days. Back to day 1 again tomorrow....sigh.
What I try to do when I'm
Alexy
The trick is to ride out your
Gem, congrats on your NC for
Don't beat yourself up
Laurelly
It's done ...here's to the next 12 Days and beyond
Payitforward
A thought
Thanks, Goldie.
You are being very hard on
Thanks, jjj
And may I add that I am fully