12 Days NC down the drain

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#1 Dec 14 - 10AM
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12 Days NC down the drain

Ok, so I knew better. I know better! I was sooo sure I would stay NC forever, too. Then, this morning I'm getting my hair colored at the salon (in same town as one of his OW lives), and I start thinking about looking up her address again (already did this a couple months ago), driving by, etc. I decided against that, and thought I was ok. Then I pull out my phone and unblock him and type out a response to his text to me a week ago today, which was "I hope you are doing well. You are on my mind a whole lot :(". Well, after 12 days no contact and 7 days since his text, I proceed to type out "Likewise, my friend". I erased it a couple times, knowing better. Then I would type it again. Then I hit send! Ugggh I am so disgusted with myself. I freaking know better. What was I hoping to accomplish, more pain? Setting myself back? To give him supply? Because that's all that can come of this stupidity. I regretted it the moment I hit send. My heart sank because I just threw away 12 days. Back to day 1 again tomorrow....sigh.

Dec 14 - 8PM
Alexy
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What I try to do when I'm

Dec 15 - 9AM (Reply to #13)
BlindNoMore
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Alexy

Dec 14 - 2PM
gemofagirl
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The trick is to ride out your

Dec 14 - 7PM (Reply to #11)
BlindNoMore
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Gem, congrats on your NC for

Dec 14 - 11AM
Laurelly82
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Don't beat yourself up

Dec 14 - 2PM (Reply to #9)
BlindNoMore
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Laurelly

Dec 14 - 10AM
Payitforward
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It's done ...here's to the next 12 Days and beyond

Dec 14 - 11AM (Reply to #7)
BlindNoMore
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Payitforward

Dec 14 - 10AM
Goldie
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A thought

Dec 14 - 10AM (Reply to #5)
BlindNoMore
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Thanks, Goldie.

Dec 14 - 10AM
jjj1984
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You are being very hard on

Dec 14 - 10AM (Reply to #3)
BlindNoMore
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Thanks, jjj

Dec 14 - 10AM
BlindNoMore
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And may I add that I am fully