Thank you all for your support. Going to try and get some stuff today, hopefully. Sticking close to the board, even though I don't say much. I guess I am just processing everything. I literally grabbed my purse and just walked out. No plan. Just had enough. Of course it is all my fault, yeah right. Today is "anger and rage" day. Have a place to stay today and tonight. Thanks again everyone.
forward through the fog. It will be worth it. No looking back now. You will be fine.
Good work for choosing yourself over chaos, destruction and total loss of your soul and spirit. There is more work ahead but the payoff is so good.
I'm sending you the good vibes and hope you and your cat are okay.
Stay NC. It brings about valuable clarity.
Sincerely (finally slowing way down from)spinning
Not married, thank God. But in business with him, house, etc. Now no job, of course. But have some money. Going to go grab what I can tomorrow while he is at work tomorrow (including my cat) get back in the car and leave. Got to the point where I cannot even stick around to make a plan. Just hate his damn face. Sounds so ridiculous, but all I can do right now. Feel like I am running for my soul.
Wow I feel the strength through your words it sounds like "Freedom" kay luv you girl..you are following all of the right steps..geting out is the master plan..run hard
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
Take everything of value to you. Everything you want. Mine changed the locks very quickly. I owned the house with him. Possession is 9/10 of the law. I never believed that he would steal & damage property. But he did. Once they have no more use for you, the real monster is revealed. Maybe having a business together will spare you somewhat because he has a business need for you. But, if this brak up is final, you may have to sell your share in the business & move on.
I've been there. May 2009. Went to a friend's house. Within one week I found a very nice rented room through a church. Older woman wanted to rent a room. She was a tremendous emotional support in a time of crisis. I did't know what would happen to me either. I was shell shocked. I am divorced now. I lost money & he broke a lot of my possessions. And spread stories about me. But, I never regret leaving him. I often shudder to think that I could still be there "working on the marriage." I am so much better off alone. So much happier & alive. I look so much better. The only time I cry is when I shed a few tears over a news report or something happens such as a friend's mom dies. All the weeping when I lived with N. All the misery. I don't miss a moment of it. Miss my garden. Just as you miss kittie. Maybe you can rent a small apartment for you & kittie? If you are married, get a good lawyer.
Thanks every one. My story...I wish I knew where to begin. I feel spiritually bankrupt. I feel humiliated, yet I allowed this to happen. I am smart, but feeling dumb. I feel...numb.
Numb is one of the first feelings you experience when you've taken a stand.
All you are describing is a feeling of sheer and utter depletion...we go into numb mode as a means of self preservation.
You have a lot in front of you but you do seem to be systematically taking steps...I really do encourage you to stick to this board during this time of crisis...
There is a ton to read and there is always someone on online...maybe not every minute, but when I first started my recovery, I was stuck on here 24/7 stuck isn't a good word...I clung to this board for my dear life and sanity...that is a better way of saying it.
Everyone here has been through it and I again want to commend you for your courage and re-assure you that you are doing the right thing.
Equally, I am available pretty much anytime except when I'm sleeping I check in frequently even if I'm not saying much on the forum...I'm reading...
Hugs!
I hope you're ok and you manage to keep strong
Read read and read this forum - you will be inspired and find a solidarity that will encourage you to make a healthier future for yourself
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I note you've been here six weeks but we haven't communicated much...I tried to search for your story and don't see one...
I hope you're okay...what you did took a lot of strength...
Stick close to the board...don't go backwards...
Wishing you all the best on this new journey...
And you have the support and validation from everyone on this forum. (I think everyone is okay with me saying that...LOL)
Hugs...
KAY- BRAVO
Thank you all for your
Kay, keep moving
spinning
Rock on Girl!! Be
Not married, thank God. But
Wow I feel the strength
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
Well good on you - Run as far
Go Fast!
Kay
Thanks every one. My
Kay
I hope you're ok and you
Hi Kay