Oh yes because actually I as in ME used to that to him and it was to get back at him so yes it was he that was jealous Mandy. I know when I did it to him it was because I was jealous and I knew it got to him though he would never show it.
I have said in many ways I was just like him only I feel and have empathy but I did often feel as though we were two toddlers duking it out for control of the relationship.
now that i think of it he was jealous *OF* me, i think. jealous that i had friends who loved me unconditionally, jealous of my relationship with my family, and jealous of my youth, for sure.
Mine was, too, but he did not hesitate to get involved and carve a huge place for himself out of my world. My relationships with family/friends/coworkers are strong and I somehow think he saw them all as a captive audience for him.
People accepted him because he was such a big part of my life, and no one really said too much until he was gone. Hearing my little nephew say, "Doesn't he love me?" when I explained that he wouldn't see him any more, is one of the things I remember when I feel weak about the N. No kid deserves that.
Oh yes because actually I as
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