Going Under

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#1 Dec 7 - 8AM

gettinbetter

Going Under

OMG I have always like this song but today I realized it must have been written about a Narc. When I watch the video it is exactly how I have felt at times

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CdhqVtpR2ts

"Going Under"

Now I will tell you what I've done for you -
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -
And you still won't hear me.
(going under)
Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real) So I don't know what's real and what's not (and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through

I'm...

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)
I won't be broken again (again)
I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through

I'm going under (going under)
I'm going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under

#2 Dec 7 - 8AM

gettinbetter

and now that I think back..

many months ago when the Narc first came back I was having dreams about being held under water and drowning which is a huge fear of mine. When I am in water I dont like for anyone to touch me at all. I never put it together until now.

#3 Dec 7 - 11AM (Reply to #2)

blueeyes

I love

Amy Lee. She looks very dark but she's NOT! She is just like us. lol. She is an awesome pianist. Lots of Amy on my i-pod. How are you SOI?

#4 Dec 7 - 6PM (Reply to #9)

gettinbetter

I am good

I actually got to meet up with a girl I met on here who was passing thru so I met her at the airport. We had a really nice visit. How bout you?

#5 Dec 7 - 8PM (Reply to #10)

blueeyes

im hanging in there

That must have been nice. I'm glad you got a face to face. I would LOVE one.

#6 Dec 7 - 9PM (Reply to #11)

gettinbetter

I wish I travelled more in

I wish I travelled more in my job. I would bring myself right up there!

#7 Dec 7 - 10PM (Reply to #12)

blueeyes

TY!

I need a face to face...And your SWORD to cut this Narc away. Better days ahead!

#8 Dec 7 - 2PM (Reply to #3)

truetotruth

Evanescence

I have everything by them. It is on Cd, Iphone and computer.I vote 100 percent she was with a Narc. Everybody's fool is amazing and lithium is my person fav. It helps alot.

#9 Dec 7 - 9PM (Reply to #8)

aceonelady

evanescence...my narc

I love Evanescence speacially My Immortal...BUT now,i cannot listen anymore without crying my Ex N was always playing it with me,and Lithium was the first Video he set to me while in a divx music site together...Thanks to him my ability to enjoy music is gone...after 2 years of D&D and Therapy,me in Europe and him in the USA i still have to leave the supermarkt in tears when they play some songs ...it sucks...i hate him for taking my joy away and the worst thing is,sometimes i think i did alloud him....HUGHS

Aceonelady

#10 Dec 7 - 6PM (Reply to #4)

gettinbetter

yes I think so

I have always loved her music. I never put together the narc thing until a few weeks ago.

#11 Dec 7 - 10PM (Reply to #5)

Lisa E. Scott

Yes!

OMG, I love Evanescence. You have no idea how much their music resonates with me, especially "Going Under" and my favorite of all... "My Immortal" This song came out during my divorce and simply said it ALL. I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me, me, me

#12 Dec 8 - 8PM (Reply to #7)

truetotruth

hello

"Hello" Playground school bell rings again Rain clouds come to play again Has no one told you she's not breathing? Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to Hello If I smile and don't believe Soon I know I'll wake from this dream Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide Don't cry Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping Hello I'm still here All that's left of yesterday and "Lithium" Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside. Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without... Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow. Oh, but God, I want to let it go. Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone. Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show. Never wanted it to be so cold. Just didn't drink enough to say you love me. I can't hold on to me, Wonder what's wrong with me. Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside. Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without... Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow. Don't want to let it lay me down this time. Drown my will to fly. Here in the darkness I know myself. Can't break free until I let it go. Let me go. Darling, I forgive you... After all, Anything is better than to be alone. And in the end I guess I had to fall. Always find my place among the ashes. I can't hold on to me, Wonder what's wrong with me. Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside. Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without... Lithium, ...stay in love with you. I'm gonna let it go. Listening to them now.

#13 Dec 7 - 10PM (Reply to #6)

gettinbetter

Woo hoo

a fellow rocker chic! This song really resonates with me. I have had dreams about drowning since the Narc came back

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