'fitting in'
'fitting in'
I'm so sensitive to other peoples feelings on here, my own included that I haven't broached this subject before for fear of alienating myself any further than I already feel I have.
Most of you are on the other side of the world already and I know we probably have culture differences but, because my narc, physcho...whatever the feck he is physically abused me, I don't feel 'In tune' with anyone on here. Apart from one other member that I have recently conversed with.
Maybe I come across as being strong...I'M NOT. I've been dying inside about what has happened to me. Maybe I'm not expressing myself properly. I have been totally immersed in paranoia for my safety, and I try to put a brave face on and use humour to cover my insecurities. I really need support though. I'm not really sure what I'm asking from of you all here though. Maybe I am on my own in all of this? Maybe his beating me has set me apart from the rest of you. Maybe I'm just different, incoherrant, irrational, illogical, an alien in new york (quoting Sting now). Maybe I'm just too sensitive, I just am trying to reach out in my own way for support and camaraderie.
The advise I try and give is probably hogwash, it's just my feelings. I'm trying to 'fit in' here is all.
Why do I feel I don't 'fit in' anywhere?
Is this why all this has happened to me...cos I don't 'fit in'?
sorry, I hope I haven't put anyones back up, I just feel so alienated and alone.
Thank you so much everyone
DespratH.
Wholeagain
You are safe here to be you,
almostlydia
You belong!
almostlydia and susan32
Of course you fit in here
Yes Shaynasmommy
Please read my post from
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Courage
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