you did put in words what i couldn't....reading what you wrote is like looking into a mirror ,thats how i feel too...all these questions...i do accept the truth like you and see reality but others do not went trough what we did so they see it in the NORMAL way....what i did learn now is to live one day at the time,not fight the tears and feelings,when i am done crying ,i do something like taking a nice shower,or anice cup of coffie burn some incense and take a nap...watch a movie or just think that tomorrow will be another day and that this will get less hard ...hughs...
How have you been? i didnt see you here for a couple of weeks or so.
Ok...i will take this up...one day at a time.
Tomorrow will be another day....will remember that. But this tomorrow has always been a shitty day...so far.
i hope it gets better...or else there is no hope for me.
all these true feelings seems not so valuable and i start to doubt myself .
Hi moonshine,i have been working out,sleeping,crying...tried to put some distance on the subject,but then i broke down....again...i called him,but thank GOD he didn;t answer....what you are going trough all these questions,i am too....now i am back NC ....and back here ,you can count on me,i also feel very often like you do but i refuse giving him the pleaure of destroy me any further....you should like i said cry,grieve,be angry,you only get better by feeling but WE NEED TO NOT LET THEM DESTROY US MORE....HUGHS
It is not fair. There will be no justice as in him feeling remorse or getting what he deserves. Some people will always believe him.
Eventually, at least for me and many others, after months of NC and feeling like you do now, I started to not care so much about him. And slowly, I have been building a life that is good and fulfilling. It does happen.
So many of us are getting to, or are getting to a full recovery. It is a wicked thing to experience and I never want to go through a thing like that again.
You can get better. He cannot.
Peace. J
I am always remembering myself about you just said....We can get better,we can enjoy little things....they cannot ...and our feelings do change about the relationship with these monsters...my worst struggle is knowing they do not care if we live or die,they just go on not learning to take eresponsability for their acts...but their life sucks,i do not wish even to think about how they really feel...i think is like living in that picture of Dantes Inferno......Groundhog Day at Hell....
its good to hear that you have been building a life that is good and fulfilling. Its positive to hear these things.
i am very afraid that i might end up as one of his friends who gives him company when he wants. I dont know why some one would do that but i am just a bit away from breaking down.
thanks for saying i will get better Janet.
I am afraid I am breaking down ...i am afraid that what i worked for all these months...what I read non stop about NPD will all go in vain.
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It is not fair. There will
Peace. J
you are right J
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its good to hear