I must have misunderstood your post or thought iyours was someone elses....
I get to reading these so fast sometimes i get confused about who is who!
Sorry, girl!
Trust Me it will come when the poision this man has injected you with is out of your body. You cant meet anybody when you have all of that poision in you. I think people just sense it. It will take time. You just have to keep putting yourself out there. I promise you one thing IT WILL HAPPEN! but you have to have your mind in a healthy place and being willing to accept it when it comes to you.
I am so sorry you are in pain right now. Can you call up a friend and get out a bit? I know you said you go out...maybe try to get out the house some?...I do hope you feel better. I'm on a tangent myself, not sad, but feeling rebellious. Check out my Taking Back Control/Let's Take over Craigslist...maybe you can do something to take away your feelings and empower yourself by getting the word out?...Try to focus on something that will make you feel empowered no matter how minimal it may be. Baby steps.
Warm hugs.
yes Im an empathist, but you dont need to be one to see the pain you're going through. Just try and over-write every thought of him with another. Get out more, you will meet someone worthy of you. Its only a matter of time till your wings heal and then youll be flying again. I know it! Name your future and then claim it, its yours.
Dont envy his black heart and relationship for a minute, its not worth a minutes thought.
Love and light A
The sexual rejection killed me. he said he couldn't 'feel close' to me. why could he feels close to girls on craigslist and porno? He was 14 years older than me, but he never had an issue getting that sucker up.
We would go weeks without having sex, but porno and having friends in the "lifestyle" would always get his motor running.
I should add, I am not chopped liver, at least those closest to me, tell me he is a fool. Tall, tan, blonde and leggy. Smart, and in school.
So, I mean, WTF?
My husband built walls, he said. He never could get "emotionally close" to me or even his friends. No emotional attachments at all. How sad is that. I feel used. I gave all, and feel like I was nothing but an inflatable love doll to him.
I am afraid of the same things you are. I am afraid to being alone, I am 46.
Of never finding love, ever.
Man, what would it be like to have someone who loved ME back like I loved and adored them? Respected them? My whole adult live it has eluded me.
I actually got more support from my EX husband, when I told him I was filing for divorce (and that was kind of ugly in the beginning, but we made our peace) as I had to let him know the kids may be upset.
He told me not to give up on love. That someone was out there for me. That I was too young and beautiful to not give it another shot.
OMFG, I got more support from my ex husband (unexpectedly) in that 30 minute converstation than I did in 7 yrs with the Narc.
I so do appreciate that gift, too. And honey, they will come to you too.
Love yourself. The rest will come in time.
(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.' --Mary Anne Radmache
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.' --Mary Anne Radmache
shaynasmommy
Oh Fireflie
Trust Me it will come when
Awww Fireflie...
and i'm also sorry for all
I feel your pain
fooled no longer..
This struck home with me....
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.' --Mary Anne Radmache