Why???
Why???
I am SO confused all over again!!! So i've been NC for 11 days and then my exN turned up at my house at 1am on Saturday morning. I opened up for him after he said he needed to talk, of course I know I shouldn't have but I did anyways... He was relatively drunk and then proceeded to tell me he loves me, still wants to be with me and I'm the only woman for him (take into account he dumped me). Innitially I laughed it off as 'drunk talk' but then some people actually tell the truth when they're drunk. I don't know why I did it but we ended up having sex and for the first time ever he really kissed me and it was more 'love making' than just fcking, as he would say. And also for the first time ever he pulled me up against him when we fell asleep, actually cuddled! He was everything I always wanted him to be, that's the man that I always wanted him to be.
And then he phones me Saturday night and calls me all the little names he called me when we were still together. Yet when I saw him yesterday he was distant again, he said he was just tired. Last night I emailed him to ask if he remembered the things he said to me on Friday night, and he said he can't remember a thing. So I told him what he said and also said that I'm confused because sometimes people say how they relly feel when they're drunk. And now he hasn't responded again. I know what all of you will say, but I can't help but think that maybe he does love me and still want to be with me, but that he's just afraid to admit it. Or that he doesn't even realise it? I was really moving on from everything but now I'm confused all over and again hoping. Why am I doing this to myself!! Please help me, I just can't seem to forget how he was Friday night!
These guys are known far and
hopefuljms ...
It really breaks my heart to
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
It could be that he truly
Marie
Thank you for reminding me
Oh sweet heart , its so
It's funny, I actually also
marie27m
Why ?? Because he can
Interesting... So he really
marie27m
Ugh because he can, so
yes, only because he can
I can't even count the
almostlydia
I cant even count the
Jaycee