'N' Songs

Beth Gibbons - 'Show' Let the show begin It's a sorry sight Let it all deceive Now I'm Pains in me that I've never found Let the show begin Let the clouds roll There's a life to be found in this world And now I see it's all but a game That we hope to achieve What we can What we will What we did suddenly But it's all just a show A time for us and the words we'll never know And daylight comes and fades with the tide And I'm here to stay But it's all just a show A time for us and the words we'll never know And daylight comes and fades with the tide I'm here to stay Been listening to this a lot at the moment and it really hits home with me after been with a N! Carrie X

"Better In Time" It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realize that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gonna be OK [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I believe in And I know that time will heal it If you didn't notice boy you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gonna be OK [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will [Chorus: X2] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time

Mr. Intentional by Lauryn Hill Yeah, yeaaayh, yeah heh, yeah heh, yeah heh... See the road to hell, is paved with good intentions Can't you tell, the way they have to mention Have they helped you out, you're such a hopeless victim Please don't do me any favors, Mr. Intentional All their talk, (?) to perfection The road they walk, commanding your affection They need to be needed, deceived by motivation An opportunity, to further situation Why they so important, is without explanation Please don't patrionize me, Mr. Intentional Oh, ohhh, ohh ohhh We give rise to ego, by being insecure The advice that we go, desperatly searching for The subconscious effort, to support our paramour To engage in denial, to admit we're immature Validating lies, Mr. Intentional Open up yours eyes, Mr. Intentional Stuck in a system, that seeks to suck your blood Held emotionally hostage, by what everybody does Counting all the money, that you give them just because Exploiting ignorance, in the name of love Stop before you drop because that's just the way it was Please don't justify me, Mr. Intentional Oh undementional, Mr. Intentional Ohhh, oh don't you do me any favors Ohhh, ohhhh, ohh ohhhh Wake up you've been sleeping Take up your bed and walk Stop blaming other people Oh it's nobody else's fault Except the truth about you You know that life goes on without you And your expensive misinventions Disguising your intentions Don't worship my hurt feelings, Mr. Intentional Oh, oh oh oh See I know you can't help me, Mr. Intentional The only help I need to live, is unprofessional The only wealth I have to give, is not material And if you need much more than that, I'm not available Please don't entertain me, Mr. Intentional Oh I dont need your sympthy, Mr. Intentional Stay away from me, Mr. Intentional So undementional, Mr. Promotional, Mr. Emotional, Mr. Intentional Ohhh ohhhh, ohhhh

Justin Timberlake- Cry me a river Justin Timberlake- What goes around comes around Maroon 5- Misery

Daughtry - over you. Like the lyrics. Now that it’s all said and done I can’t believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down Like an old abandoned house What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath I felt as if I was in way to deep Guess I let you get the best of meeee (Chorus) Well I never saw it coming I should have started running A long, long time agooo! And I never thought I’d doubt you I’m better off without you More than you, more than you know I’m slowly getting closure I guess it’s really over I’m finally gettin’ better Now I’m picking up the pieces From spending all of these years Putting my heart back together ‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through I got over you!!! (End Chorus) You took a hammer to these walls Dragged the memories down the hall Packed your bags and walked away There was nothing I could say, And when you slammed the front door shut A lot of other’s opened up So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for meee

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone. You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain. Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me. You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong. But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone. I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground. But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go. The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down You're on to me, on to me, and all over... Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.

Aimee Mann did a great album called Bachelor No 2 or the last remains of the dodo. At the time, I loved the album, but at a later date (as in a few years after getting it) I realised it applied to people I'd been involved with. So many of the songs... 1. Nothing is good enough That nothing is good enough for people like you who have to have someone take the fall and something to sabotage-- determined to lose it all Critics at their worst could never criticize the way that you do no, there's no one else, I find, to undermine or dash a hope quite like you and you do it so casually, too 2. The Fall Of The World's Own Optimist There's no charity in you and that surprises me I guess I thought you were a golden idol 'cause I called you majesty 3. Deathly Now that I’ve met you Would you object to Never seeing each other again Cause I can’t afford to Climb aboard you No one’s got that much ego to spend It's a cracking album, irrespective of whether you've been out with a narc... but now when I listen to it the extra meaning it has resonates so strongly.

Hurting Me Now- Sia This song has lyrics like "you're hurting me now/and you don't care." It's about the barrage of constant verbal abuse and criticism. The Fight- Sia It's a more upbeat song, with uplifting lyrics like "we are human" and "from the darkness into the light."

Just listening to this song on America's Top 40. It's got great lyrics like "who died and made you king of anything?" "You've got the talking down, but not the listening." "You tell me who to be." "I've tried to make everybody happy when I hurt inside." Wow...

I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love I did, I did And you were strong and I was not My illusion, my mistake I was careless, I forgot I did And now when all is done There is nothing to say You have gone and so effortlessly You have won You can go ahead tell them Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof top Write it on the sky love All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Falling out of love is hard Falling for betrayal is worst Broken trust and broken hearts I know, I know Thinking all you need is there Building faith on love is worst Empty promises will wear I know (i know) And know when all is gone There is nothing to say And if you're done with embarrassing me On your own you can go ahead tell them Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof top Write it on the sky love All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Ooh impossible (yeah yeah) I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love I did Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof top Write it on the sky love All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy (i was happy) And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love I did

Sarah McLachlan has a new one called "Forgiveness" which I'm assuming is about her husband cheating on her... "Detours" by Sheryl Crow gives me a ton of hope... I believe she wrote it after her break up with Lance Armstrong... who is no doubt a narcissist. And tne song that really captures the pain I felt after the breakup (and also the song at the very end of "Love and Basketball") is "Fool of Me" by Me'Shell Ndegeocello. I remember when you filled my heart with joy Was I blind to the truth just there to fill the space 'Cause now you have no interest in anything I have to say And I have allowed you to make me feel dumb What kind of fool am I that you so easily set me aside

Coming home today I heard this song by Pink. I really like the melody. What caught my attention was the part "you called me sugar" (who doesn't love to feel special?)and "hated yourself for staring at the phone." (realizing you are hooked and it's unhealthy). It just reminds me of how easy it is to lose yourself sometimes and how we need to stay grounded early on in relationships of any kind. "Glitter In The Air" Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands? Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted? Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air? Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"? It's only half past the point of no return The tip of the iceberg The sun before the burn The thunder before the lightning The breath before the phrase Have you ever felt this way? Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone? You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry? Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside? It's only half past the point of oblivion The hourglass on the table The walk before the run The breath before the kiss And the fear before the flames Have you ever felt this way? La La La La La La La La There you are, sitting in the garden Clutching my coffee, Calling me sugar You called me sugar Have you ever wished for an endless night? Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight? Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight

The aftermath: I'm still standing- Elton John (the lyrics are pretty powerful with "you treated love like a circus, now you're a clown") Try sleeping with a Broken Heart- Alicia Keys Take a Bow- Leona Lewis Happy Ending- Avril Lavigne

Say It by Blue October So Cruel by U2 Everybody's Fool by Evanescence Jennyxoxo

Love the Way You Lie - Rihanna & Eminem All we Ever do is Say Goodbye - John Mayer Mockingbird - Rob Thomas

You can't break a broken heart-Kate Vogele Over It-Katharine McPhee Missing him song: Come Around-Rosi Golan Strange-Joe Brooks