Today

I started off today in a good place. I had group last night, I was starting to feel good. Then I saw the OW when I was going to a meeting and it completely threw me off. I was talking and stopped mid-sentence to look at her hand to see if she's engaged. She looked happy and good. I know from this forum and talking to everyone that she's either still in the honeymoon stage with him, or she's good at covering it, but my heart sank. I know he's not worth the pain. If anything, this week has proved that 100% to me. I know from many of you, that it gets easier. I just wish I could be in that spot. I feel like I hit a small roadbump this morning and trying to get back on track. I want to have her or him not BOTHER me at all. To be able to think "poor her" rather than "I'm jealous she has him." You've all given me good advice on how to do that so far, and I know I shouldn't vent everything on the forum, but I really need some support to make sure I don't go off track today. My body is still shaking a bit even after sitting in a meeting for an hour.

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