Tonight

So tonight I went out with a group of women to a local place. Lo and behold, the N was there by himself. Opposite sides of the room, thankfully. The bartender, who we both know came right over to tell me "he" is there. I guess she did the same to him because his reply was "she's not talking to me."

I saw him walk out about 20 minutes after I arrived. And I had a fun time with my friends.

So I'm home now. Read a few posts on here for some empowerment.

I can honestly say that while it tugs at my heart that 10 years ended with silence, I do feel good that it was my choice for it to be this way now. I've stuck with NC. And I KNOW it was the best possible choice I could have made for myself. If he were still in my life, I would not have been out having fun with my friends. I would have sat home all night rehashing his latest self inflicted drama or upset about being neglected,used and abused.

6+ weeks of NC.