Testing 1, 2, 3, Testing ...

I feel like I'm being tested lately by some snarky higher power with a really twisted sense of humor. And i'm getting sick of it. I have been doing so well lately. Making enormous strides in my recovery in most areas of my life. Have been feeling so much better. I had an ugly work situation I handled really well. My relationship with my kids is so much better. I'll be 7 months NC this week. Then the N started hoovering. The email I was told by IT at work was blocked was not. Ok. No biggie. Some feelings. No spinning. Whew. Then my ex-husband (not the N) got sick. A very serious form of lymphoma. That has kicked up a whole shitload of feelings. Fear. Sadness. Anger. Frustration. Fear. Sadness. Anger. Anxiety. Then the EXNarcopath started hoovering. Sending texts. He's blocked on my phone and iPad but they are coming through on my computer. 2. Then 3. 4. 5. 6. In less than 2 weeks. All the same "Hello Dee" Ok. Not only not spinning. But I didn't care. At all. Except for getting creeped out by the repetitive "hello Dee". Creepy. Sick twisted ahole. In the meantime, I am coming apart at the seams a bit over my ex and worrying about my kids dealing woth their father's illness and financial concerns. He has no medical insurance and we share some assets still. It's a lot. Then a little whole ago I answered my phone. Unfamiliar number. I know. Dont answer. But I thought it was my dr. Same area code and exchange. And inhave been feeling really Good. No hello. No identification. Just "I was hoping it would go to voicemail". I didn't say a word. Just hung up before he could continue. And burst into tears. I'm not spinning but I'm churned up. He was PISSED, lol. I could hear that disgusting rage voice. He must have called and figured out he's blocked and called from another number. Oops. Poor poor Narcie all angry at having his supply fly the coop without permission?? Go f--k yourself you narc POS. This girl is DONE. But seriously, Universe. It's enough. I'm crying uncle.