Crazy Talk

Sorry to add drama to the board but I come here to post events and my feelings so that I can get it out.

XHN came by Thursday night, banging on doors. I didn't answer. He was here to pick up hay but since OW was out of town I'm sure it was an excuse for him to secure his supply. I did as I have read here, and did not answer or respond.

He sent email to my work address this morning saying we needed to meet and talk. Again I did not respond. I mentioned that he asked the question without a question mark, instead using a period as if it were a statement.

He show up again tonight to pick up more hay. Seriously? He had two weeks worth when he came on Thursday. My intuitions were right again. The period signified a mission rather than a question.

I was not available to him but the crazy talk in my head began. In my head I speak more to her than to him. Since she is my niece I guess I believe there is more an avenue of sanity.

Instead of texting her and alerting her that her "man" is again at my house, I came here.

I am living this. I am not talking about something I saw on television. I am trying to get out of a narcissistic relation with my sanity intact.

I have learned some great skills here, life saving - and THANK YOU! I come here to read, learn and share.

My drama will pass since I have a plan in place to separate his things and give him a deadline to get whatever is his. That should stop him from freely coming over and picking up things. I am aggressively working on this. Between a locksmith to break locks so that I can separate belongings and the lawyer who will settle our divorce I am being diligent.

I am doing all the right things. I am still scared and hoping for the best.