Love is Just a 4 Letter Word
Love is Just a 4 Letter Word
For me, the whole thing went awry when I whispered the L word in N's ear. All bets were off....Do Not Pass Go...Do Not Collect $200. I was considered weak and insignificant. It was like a total shut-down. I figured 5 weeks-in was long enough to say it. N was a text book case NARCISSIST. I wished I had known what that meant. He has all of the traits. I would have saved myself a lot of aggravation.
I'm actually glad I said it. It caused the mask to slip early on. I knew that someone couldn't be THAT nice all of the time. Besides, he was stepping out on the ex before they broke up and admitted it. Just showed me what kind of character he had. I think subconciously I had my guard up, as his behaviour became somewhat erratic. There were no daytime dates, or public ones. We spent most of our evenings in my apartment. I couldn't go over there, or phone. Yet, I was told I was clingy and co-dependent. Clingy how? co-dependent how? My communication with him was limited. He always called me. I never questioned his whereabouts. I was the perfect non-questioning mate....if I do say so myself ;)
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