He emailed me
He emailed me
I originally just sent this to Juliette, but would love to hear other perspectives.
I know I should not have looked at this email, but I'm not that strong yet. I've been really strong in not responding to him, though, so I can feel myself getting stronger. But I want to share his email with everyone if that's okay. It helps me to see other people looking through his bullshit, incase I can't fully do that myself.
His email:
Hey there, I hope you're doing great.
I know you didn't respond to my last texts, which is cool, though I'm not sure if I rubbed you the wrong way by anything that I said. I felt pretty strange reaching out to you to begin with.
I'm not a big closure person, and that's not what this is about. Essentially we've been apart for four months now, which I think leaves plenty of room to move on and for feelings to change and ultimately, or at the very least pragmatically, diminish.
It was difficult not speaking to you during July, for obvious reasons we don't need to discuss. It seemed to me to be what you wanted, or what was best for you.
In fact, it's very difficult not speaking to you at any point, and not having you as part of my life.
But beyond all of that stuff, what's been really painful is knowing that I'm not right for you.
I wanted you to know that when things did work, it was really awesome. You're the best woman in the world, and the most beautiful, as I deem a lot of people would attest.
I know it's really late, but this isn't a drinking thing (I've had about three glasses of wine this summer). I've been working around the clock, and I so wish I had you to talk you about everything. I appreciated that beyond measure.
I also want to be totally clear that I am not trying to bait you or interfere with your life—I've reached my quota in that department. I just wanted to wish you well.
Best,
Stephen
It's insane how he throws in that little dig in the end about not wanting me or anything because he's "reached his quota" in that department.
And also, I like how he tells me he's not a big closure person and then tells me about how "feelings" (not sure if mine or his) have diminished. Why is that necessary to tell me?
And the part about not speaking in July is fucking ridiculous—it "seemed" like what I wanted?? I SPECIFICALLY laid that out. I specifically gave him an ultimatum about speaking. So why is acting like he just assumed I didn't want to speak to him? I told him I DID want to speak, but only if he could commit to me, otherwise I had to cut off communication to move on.
I just don't get this email—what is the purpose (from his pov? ) Just to wish me well? He wished me well 4 times in his text messages and I said I was well. Am I supposed to feel sorry for him because his job is hard? Please.
Again, I'm sorry for giving his email any consideration, but I'm getting tempted to write back: "Perhaps I've reached my quota for being fucked with." I don't know.
I also WTF'd when I read "as
Clark I think we have pragmatically established
Your silence speaks louder than ANY words can.
Right on Juliette - spot on
Journey on...
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