Damaged????

Hi all!!!!! I feel the need to ramble....

Well, I finally quit counting days....Am I over him??? No....not completely.....Do I miss him????? Hell no!!!!!!....Do I care what he's doing???? Hell no!!!!

I'm just a little bit too trusting still at this point....Had a near miss with another narc and am soooooo thankful for my friends here....sometimes you just gotta be talked off the ledge, huh??? :)

I've been dating probably the nicest man I've ever run across in my 53 years...a truly kind, gentle, caring person....no love bombing....he doesn't want all my time....and we've actually been on a "date"....dinner, dancing....a date....wow....I am NOT used to this....

My daughter had a few interesting comments to make on the dating thing.....she's 19....doesn't have a whole lot to do with old mom at this point in her life....but....her observation on the new guy was.....don't push him away...you don't trust men.....hmmmmmmm.....

My first husband died last month....we were friends since I was 13....married at 16, divorced 5 years later....cause I was young and stupid....It surprises me at the grief I still feel......what would my life have been like???? I could have escaped the narc devastation......

Is it all a master plan???????