Roller coaster

Talk about roller coaster of emotions. Only 4 weeks NC but the pleasure of seeing the sob at work each day. Yes he's hoovered out of work even turning up at my house at the weekend (I didn't answer). Despite this stupid me thought he'll keep quiet in work now.

So today I go out for cigarrette (a vice I need to give up). Up to today I've always gone with a colleague just in case I run into him as know he'd say nothing with anyone with me. And been right on that. I felt so much better today I let my guard down & went on my own. I didn't even notice him there but he must have clocked me. As suddenly hear him talking v v v loudly to some guys he was with about his wife. How clever she is, how pretty she is, how caring she is. And how trusting she is. Then he repeated the whole lot several times ...

Talk about mixed emotions. I knew it was all for my benefit & it was so fake. I felt pity for her him bragging how trusting she is. And I felt so upset again that someone who claimed to be my soulmate just a month ago can be so bloody heartless. He's enjoying this I know.

Just need to vent ... know he's a lying, manipulative, cheat. It's hard to accept he still has ability to hurt me despite me knowing that. And knowing he wants a reaction ... the I love you e-mails haven't worked, the abusive texts haven't worked, the turning up at my house hasn't worked ... so how dare he think this will. What a sad pathetic 'man'