Still moving....

It’s my birthday today…….I was so excited about…….my first one without spinning at all from the narc. I am in such a better place since I left the narc. I was even asked out for a couple of dates to celebrate, but I refused because I made that commitment not to date for another 8 months. My close friends are on vacation…….so a bit lonely. I had decided to go to the lake by myself, but the day is so overcast and rain is expected.
I just read A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini , a novel about what the women in Afghanistan go though. How their choices are limited due to economics, and cultural norms. How there is a fight in so many areas in their life to even exist, and their choices are so limited.
So today I am thankful for the freedom……
That I do not have to stay with an abusive man…..
That I have a decent job…..
That my family and friends are safe….
Thankful that I have the freedom to go for a walk by myself….
To truly be able to have the freedom to choose who I will be involved with when I am ready…….
Thankful for this forum and the friends that I have met through it……..
The mods were so right, about not dating. It was so easy to distract myself with finding someone to be with. I am determine to continue healing. I am learning to trust myself more and more. It is an amazing thing, to rely on yourself for your emotional well-being and nobody else.
So somehow today, I will find a way to celebrate this wonderful life that I been given.
Thanks for all your help and encouragement.

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