Going to commit myself

You ladies are the most wonderful group of people I've met in ages.
But unfortunately despite all, I broke no contact...of a surprise to me too. I blocked him, but he came round..he sweet talked me...he wanted sex...and I was weak so I gave in. Then when I started to cry and get upset about it, he said "just cause we have sex don't mean I'm putting a ring on you. You knew I was free, and still am."

Then he went on and told me if I was a perfect ten he would marry me. If I was more beautiful, or more smart. Then he said he was not some player...he could just love more girls than one. He also told me he was not sweet talking them at night and getting close to them, because I accused him of that, he said he wasn't that he wasn't committing to any of us.

At first he seemed all kind when I got upset "oh sweetheart, I'm sorry. I'm not trying to hurt you." Then when I unfortunately started going off on him he turned cold. I said I need to say goodbye to you now...he said, no lets not do this s quickly. It doesn't meet what I need. Let me call you later when I've had time to process this and get through my emotions, because I'm tired of you leaving abruptly like you always do (he's referring to when I go
NC). And then coming back. You're playing games with me...or something along those lines, and it's affecting me. < that's what he said.

Anyway so I said, no I need to do this now, I can't wait anymore...and he told me to shut up and go think by myself. That he didn't want to hear it and to leave him alone. Well I know for a fact he went back t get "support and comfort" from one of his other women...and he blocked me from his phone, iMessage, everything. He's giving me the ST big time now...and I'm just crying and losing my mind. I admit this is my fault. I let him in...he said the reason he found his latest is because he was lonely without me and when he tried to call and I didn't answer he had to find somebody to talk to. Friends and girls alike. He said I devalue him and his love for me.

I don't know what to do...so I finally said like an idiot, okay I will work with you, we will do this in a way that meets your needs. I asked him if he was still planning to call me? He has not said anything. Like he wants me to wait here while he chats her up and down and lord knows what else....and I know you ladies will tell me just block block block...and I should have kept it that way. I feel like I am literally going insane right now. I wonder if I am not the one who's crazy. He's obviously handling this well. I feel like I need to commit myself, else I'll do something very stupid right now. I'm sorry girls :(