moving

Today is moving day. I have packed up the house I have lived in for several years and am now awaiting the removal men.

its a funny day. I have loved this house but I have had some of the worst days of my life in it. I have moved two narcs into this house one after the other! Didnt learn the first time!

So all of my belongings are going off to storage until I decide where I want to buy a house, in a way its very freeing.

The world is literally my oyster! I'm moving to a new town to be closer to by job. So I have a new place to discover.

I was worried I was running away but in the 4 months since NC i have been to places I wanted to go to and where I ran every risk of running into N2. I've taken back my places so its a practical desicion not one of hurt and fear.

This house undoubtedly has memories and at the risk of sounding bonkers I still talk to the ex N in my head when im here. When I am away that doesnt happen so it will be a relief in that sense.

I shall miss my lovely friends so much ... after N number 1 I got rid of anyone who wasnt genuine, on my side or a good person and so I only have a few close and lovely people around me. I will continue to be careful in the new town too... boundaries are firmly in place ... when I first met N1 I was like a lamb to the slaughter... that person has gone.. been killed off by those nasty narcs.. but in her place is someone who is a bit frightened of the move and the future but facing it head on and seeing the wonderful potential there is and is in a place where I can judge who is good for me and who is not. Who will add to my life and who will take away.

I never imagined a year ago I would be where I am today. I am grateful for all that I have learned and for this site which has given me knowledge and power! and all the wonderful women I have met on here who have supported and cared!

here's to new beginnings! Cheers
Toots xxx