harleygirls2010's story
harleygirls2010's story
my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years walked out again Friday night for the 4th time. I should be jumping for joy as I had been walking on egg shells for the past few weeks, I was scared of telling him how I feel as I knew he would jump ship. I didnt even ask for much, just a bit of re-assurance that things would not changed when he moved into his new house that he is buying. He was living with his mum when we met and moved in with me and my kids 10 months into the relationship.
We was soo good together 90% of the time but the 10% thats bad was that bad that I felt like a nervous wreck, scared when my 12 year old son spoke in case he interrupted him. He told me from the start that he was not looking for anything perm as he had been 'done over' by past girlfriends for the last 17 years, but i thought I could change him...
i have always been a people pleaser and I love nothing more than making people happy, I feel so so sad now, as I still want him back, im reading everyones posts and can relate to so many traits these men have, and still I just want him here, Im embaressed that my self esteem must be that low.....
I only discovered this site last night when I googled 'talking about yourself as he instead if I' and it came up with narc, its hard to take in.....
I spent the last 2 1/2 years trying to make this man happy, sort out his problems, for what? I feel so used, useless and pathetic...
x
Harley
TexN
Rache
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welcome harleygirl2010
It takes some time to soak it all in
Take Care
thankyou
protect
Protect
Harleygirl and Men on motorcycles.
harleys
any lure will do
FORGOT to mention-
Protect
he would call
Protect
sorry I vanished
Please Continue to Read Around Here
end of my rope....
PTSD in the U.K.
harleygirl