YAHOOOOO !!

I made it to 1 year NC as of today. So lets see how I feel ..... I feel disconnected from him; I will always feel a sadness over what he did; he is not important in my life anymore; I've been more worried about getting a job this past year !! (Have interview today); I feel that he will forever be an emotional mess; I feel free from his "emotional bondage"; I feel that I am in control of my life now; I feel that God purposefully kept him away from me to let me heal; I also feel alone, but I know that's the way it is for now; I am beginning to feel sorry for the OW, whoever she is; and most of all, I feel so thankful for everyone who helped me and cared about me.... All my friends, my son and everyone on this site.... I hope God blesses you all.

And my message to the newbies here : trust me, I know the pain. You HAVE to remain NC.... If you don't, you will forever stay in the pain you're in right now..... You will NEVER heal and he will literally take your life..... Don't let it happen, be strong and do what you know in your heart must be done.... GET RID OF HIM OR HER !!!! There's just no other way .... Tons of hugs to you all and thank you ... Xoxoxoxoxoxo