sad today

I've been doing so good since 'diggerman' got transferred but today I had a meeting with my boss and of course he asks how are things with you and s? He knows Damn well we aren't together but being a huge narc himself, I think he enjoys watching people squirm. I said I haven't spoken to him. He said well he told me you won't leave him alone (lie) and that you're crazy (debatable). He's been getting along really well with the new girl (it's only him and her in the office) He's been hitting the bar up there (great place for nasty easy supply...)

Mortification commence

Like I was punched in the gut with a bat. I hate this man for doing this to me. Why must he make me look so bad to the boss? I love my job and the boss is only in town once a month or so. How can I tell him to stop friggin bringing up the narc without looking like a total mess??

And it hurts. I loved him. I've never been so betrayed in my life. My heart's broken open and I can't even escape it at work. He messed with my head so much I don't trust my own judgment anymore.