Having Trouble...

Gosh, I wish I understood what it takes to get to the "other side". Had a horrible day, yesterday. After over three months NC, and I'd been doing well, better every day. Marginally, but better. Then, I couldn't even get out of bed on Saturday morning. Told everyone I was sick, and cancelled plans with friends and family, but WTH? I want this to be over with. I have a great job, and semi-grown children who depend on me to be there for them. And I want so much to move forward. But I can't seem to get any traction-I don't want to get involved in anything new. I've been in a Support Group with Goldie for the last 6 weeks, and the things I've learned have been valuable. But I've got to get out of this stuck place. Anybody out there in the same place, or remember being in the same place, have any advice to give? It's not that I'm thinking about the narc, or wanting get back with him, or anything like that. It's just a pervasive feeling of depression and being stuck with no forward motion.