im spinning!!!!
im spinning!!!!
Im really sorry i keep posting on here, but ur my only support in all this and i dont wanna break this limited contact ive been doing so well for the last few weeks, any urges ive been just posting on here.
Well hes been quiet recently just sticking to agreed days and times to see our son and writing in the book i put in my sons bag for communication. And wen its been pick ups and drop offs ive just kept strong smiled hi and bye and thanks and shut the door.
Well this last few days ive noticed hes been ringing the house phone again during the day, when im studying. I never answer the house phone and just press 1471 to see who it is, and its been him. Then last night wen he dropped our son off, i felt really anxious and panicky before but kept it together, and he said 'your looking really nice today u no, any particular reason??' I just ignored it and said bye and shut the door. Then this morning ive noticed he has emailed me from another email account from his work, i dont no how he has done this becoz he is blocked from my emails, and he said 'r u at home?'
Wtf?? Obviously im ignoring him, but now im spinning coz just from a nice compliment im getting sucked back in, thinking about him again n thinking what does he want asking me if im home? Arrgghh this is so hard. If it was regarding our son he would just leave a message wudnt he, or say in the email its about our son.
Its so hard breaking this addiction, i wont respond im coming here every time lol thank u for letting me vent xxxx
Honestly i cannot thank u
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Your son is fine.. If there
It's good you are coming here
Journey on...
Eh
IB, this is BRILLIANT
spinning
What a great analogy about
Dear Hope29
I am sorry im boring myself
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