Epic Fail

I was 7 weeks N/C. Feeling better every day. Working my butt off on recovery.
He caught me completely off guard today and I listened way longer than I should have.
He hates his life. The new woman he moved in with her convict son who is 20 is out of control....on and on and on.
I feel sick inside and my mind is going a million miles an hour.
I failed.
Let me have it.