Not this time!!!
Not this time!!!
Hello Friends!
Last February, I had two minor slip ups:
1) I sent him a message but was able to recall it.
2) I replied to an e-mail he sent.
Today, I got a reply to my reply via work e-mail. I deleted it. Surprisingly, it did not make me spin in a way such as, should I repky back? Or, what is he thinking nor did I disect every word or ketter. Did it make me sad? Yes. I actually cried my eyes out when I got home. It made me sad because a part of me still has affection for the man that I thought he was but I know, this time I will no longer respond. No, I did not get that high or sense of validation that he hoovered like the feelings I had on his previous hoovers. This time, no matter how sad I felt, I choose to remain NC and refused to dole up any more NS.
I hope that day will finally come when I've truly released him from my heart and mind, but that day won't come as long as I continue to participate in that dance!
Good night my friends! Thank you for all your support!
Love this, NTT...
spinning
(not) spinning, thank you
Good for you for holding on
Not your blow up doll, thank