Jaaaaaa!

I feel myself getting angrier and focusing too much on wanting to contact him like I ad posted earlier. I have thoughts of fake N, thinking f him having a glorious sex and love filled night with his OW, and getting jealous. Then realistic thoughts of real N, and getting mad. Whatever thoughts I have of him are not comforting or positive. I getting in that mode of wanting to message him telling him what an idiot he is. Hope I feel more positive tomorrow. You know what? I will feel better tomorrow, I will make sure of that.