trying to get out

I was married to an intellegent Narcissist for 22 years. I finally divorced him only to immediately fall into the arms of a toxic sexual narcissist. I have been in this relationship for 8 years. He is married, and told me he was getting divorced, etc. Our relationship was explosive, very fun. I worked with him. I opened my own personal training business right next door to him. I spend about 13 hours a day stroking his ego and I got tired. I've tried to break up for years but then he'd get nice, told me that we could just be there for eachother until I found someone else. Well, as long as I was with him, I wouldn't ever find anyone and he knew that. I was totally into him. He got sick and got M.S. His wife carried the insurance and the medication was over $2,000 a month and she was supporting him, going w him to the doctor, etc. I wanted to do the right thing and step out. He has fought this tooth and nail. Now he is doing everything in his power to keep me. Even asked me to marry him as soon as he gets divorced. He got a full time job to have benefits so that he could have his own insureance, he is crying, begging, and also getting horribly ugly at times, then apologizes profusly. He acknowledges my leaving is his fault and says he loves me more than anyone he's ever had. He is holding on for dear life and is really making it hard to leave. last night he wanted to come over to my house and I told him no. He said he was coming anyway, I could call the police if I wanted but no one was stopping him. He would bust down the door if I didn't answer. He has several weapons and I was scared. I had my gun near by and warned him not to come. Then he apologized and said how sorry he was and that I scared him and I would be sorry when I was missing him one day. I was an idiot and didn't even know it. I was really messing up because no one would love me like he does.

Crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!